head. All at once, I felt calm; and I knew I was the Ancient One. Then seven years passed, and one day Maharaj folded His hands and said, 'Merwan, you are the Avatar.'

"I am now infinitely enjoying bliss and infinitely suffering at the same time. As soon as I drop My body, I will go to My abode of Infinite Bliss. I suffer and suffer. From October, for three months, will be the climax of My sufferings, and then the world will recognize Me.

“Sometimes I feel, 'Why explain anything?' Just come, sit down, you all be here, be quiet, and be in company with Baba. Sometimes I feel like explaining things. I wonder which is better. What shall we do? Shall we go on explaining, or shall we be quiet?"

We also were divided on this subject, so Baba decided that one day He would explain, and on the next day we would be quiet with him.

"Your work has to be defined," He continued. "It has to be practical and yet divine; practical in the sense that in every life it can be achieved, not just sitting quiet, aloof, renouncing the world. I will give you new and original aspects of the same truth.

"A form of Zoroastrian prayer is called Kusti. All four prayers say the same thing. Since Babajan kissed Me on the forehead, I bow down to My own Self. Why?"

Someone said, "Because there is nothing else to bow down to."

"That is My actual, continual experience," Baba resumed. "What is needed is to become, not only to see. You have to become what you already are. You are God, but you have to know how to become God; and Christ humiliated Himself, God Himself Crucified Himself, to teach this;—through love, become what you already are."

Saturday, September 18

From 9 to 9:30 a.m., we all sat quietly, thinking of Baba and trying to visualize His figure in our mind's eye.

At 10:05 a.m. Baba started walking up the Hill. On the way up the road, He stooped down three times, picked up a stone each time, and threw it into the grass. At the top of the Hill He greeted each of us warmly, clasping our