“We are all meant to be as honest as God, as loving as God, as happy as God: and only the Christ suffers for humanity, although He is the source of all happiness. You see Me in this physical form, but every moment I am crucified. Only those fortunate ones know this. I suffer as no one could suffer; I suffer because I love. Godavri is one of the most lovable beings in the world, and what she has tried to do all these years!

"How Godavri loves Me and what a virgin she is! She is like Krishna's mother. Sometime ago a well-known astrologer came to pay homage to Maharaj. I had already sent news to the West and elsewhere that I should break My silence and meet a violent death. She had had that circular and eves much depressed. The date and time of My birth were given to the astrologer; and he said the months of November and December would be very hard for Me. They asked for some relief for Me. This man said that for fifteen days there should be ceremonies and mantras for Baba to relieve Him from this suffering. This was done of their own accord. A letter from the chief priest of the temple said this had happened, and that they willingly and lovingly performed the ceremonies, and kept the ashes according to their custom. I followed out what they wanted because of their great love. Nothing can stop what has to happen. I have to break my silence before the end of the year, to manifest, and to drop this body. What is ordained must be. If people love God as I want them to do, My work is accomplished.

"Were there any other promises?" Baba asked. Malcolm said, To talk about repression?" Baba said, "In a few words I will tell you about repression.

“Illusion is a temporary phenomenon: something that is not what it appears to be. On this are based the following words: Illusion creates innumerable illusions, and each illusion leaves the marks of experience in the form of impressions. For example, during the night, you are asleep and on waking up, your hand touches something near the bed and at once you think it is a scorpion. You have created a scorpion which is not there. But you shrink with fear, get out of bed, get a stick and hit the supposed scorpion. Then you see it was not a scorpion but something else. Though there was no scorpion, the impressions of getting frightened, getting out of bed and hitting the scorpion are now stamped on your mind, and somehow have to be spent. So illusion continues, gaining impressions and spending impressions, and all the time illusion is preserved.