at all. Again Baba was working with me from within; each night I had some strange dream or vision or both, then in the evening of the next day, as we were seated near Him with all the women, He would turn to me, saying, "What did you dream last night?" I had to tell a dream, then Baba would comment on it. Others, I did not tell. But Baba would smile at me. The first night under "Baba's roof" I dreamt I saw His alphabet board in my heart, and His two fingers on two letter M's. And I remember waking and feeling the rush of His love through my heart and hearing His voice saying, "I am Filis, I am Filis," and "Mehera, Mehera."

The next morning, a few of us, were allowed a private interview with Baba in the Lagoon Cabin. He even sent out the mandali – Adi in my case. I was alone with God! and I felt very shy but happy. I was overcome by His beauty. He spelled slowly on the board, "Any questions?" and I shook my head. But of course a deep question welled up within my heart: why all that suffering? He took my wrist in His hand, and I felt my blood flowing into His body, and His blood flowing into mine. I felt a mystical sense of sharing His suffering, He sharing mine. It was a wordless answer. He called Adi back in the room with a clap. Then He spelled out on the board, "One who asks for nothing, gets everything." Again He spoke of love for God as the only thing that is real. I took His hand – it was like holding a child's hand, or a rose, the flesh was pure, almost transparent. Then I Silently said to Him, "Baba, I always want you for my Master – all the way to the end." Baba nodded in reply.

At this date it's hard for me to recall on which days we did certain things, so without dates: One day Baba showed us through His new house. As we were all standing in the hall, He pressed the button that rang in the mandali's room. He was amused when we all jumped. Before He entered the house He had given the key to Adele Wolkin to open the door. As she is of Russian descent, the words Baba had once said flashed through my mind – "Russia holds the key."

Another time, when He showed the house to a second group, He remained outside until all entered. Adele and I were the last. Baba took our two hands in His. It was so like a marriage ceremony Adele giggled and said, "Baba, are we married?" Baba at once pointed to His heart. We were married to Him.

One day Baba invited Adele and myself' into the back seat of the car – the blue Ford, Elizabeth driving, of course. Baba held the seven various keys of the Center in His hand. I thought of Keys of the Kingdom, one for each plane! In answer to my thought, Baba held up the keys and swung them. Baba often invited us to ride with Him. Once the back of the car was full of pillows and we were unloading them. Baba helped us by playfully tossing pillows at us. What did they symbolize?

So many wanted to drive Baba. Sometimes they got their wish, like Fred Winterfeldt. Baba let him drive him in his old black car. But teasingly, He said. "Do you know the way?" Fred said, "Sure." It was only ¾ of a mile to His house from the Lagoon Cabin. But suddenly, they were at a dead end, with trees in front of the car. Baba was chuckling, silently.

Charmy Duce was another would-be driver. She had a map of the U. S. spread out on the dining room table, for Baba was to drive to California with the mandali. Pleadingly she asked Baba if she could drive Him. There was a strange look in Baba's eyes as He gestured no. As I looked at the map I thought she had marked half of the way in red. But I looked